Please hide my name. In fact,I am wondering if I should post this or not but I want advise and I want others to learn from my mistake. I am desperate but also a very simple person. I been married 8 years to a selfish bastard. I never ask for anything,I treat him well,give him respect but since day one,he has never been able to keep it in his pants.
We have a 5 year old daughter and because of mu husband’s waywardness, I decided not to have any more children. Our marriage has been like a contract since day one. Maybe cos my husband married me just for my money.
Yes,I dated my husband at the time when I was past 35 years. I was a successful branch manager and had everything in life but no husband. We met in my branch,he was looking for facility,I helped him and we developed a friendship that led to sleeping with him.
I got pregnant but I never forced him to marry me. Marriage was his idea. I agreed cos I felt its was ok. I did not need anything from him. Marriage was a safety idea for me. But from day 1,he was never faithful.
I was hurt and did everything I could to salvage the marriage but he just never changed.People said a baby would help us but that changed nothing when I had my baby girl. I accepted my fate.
We live in the same house but we do not sleep together. We are like strangers to each other. The only thing we talk about is my daughter’s school or something like that. We never have s*x. We live like that. I bury myself into my work.
For the past 2 weeks of lock-down,things have not been the same. I am practically very bored. I craved for a man more than before. I thought I could convince my husband to have s*x with me but he denied me. I cried and cried that night.
Out of my frustration,I texted a guy that has been toasting me but I refused to listen to him. The guy came over and I told him,I did not want anything from him,just to sleep with him. He agreed. In his car,parked in a dark area in my street,I had s*x with this guy that night
I felt no guilt or remorse. After all,my husband was doing the same thing for years. The only problem now is,now that I have ventured out of my marriage to sleep with another man,I have been craving to do it again. Like I said,I am a simple person…I am not that type of person to sleep around..but I cant live the rest of my life in a s*xless marriage…
I went online to check out this guy I slept with and saw pictures of him with a lady . I asked him who the lady was,he said his girlfriend but they broke up. How do I know he is telling the truth? I don’t want to enter frying pan to fire. My husband is a pathological cheat…should I be worried this guy is a cheat too?
He wants us to see this night…one thing is certain…my marriage is over..its not even a real marriage…my only concern is:how do I ensure I do not get into the same or a worse situation than I am presently?