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She was a virgin.
I asked her why didn’t she tell me, she kept mute. I told her to keep it for her husband cos there is a blessing attached to it. I advised her as a big brother bit she refused. She stood she loved me and pleaded I break her.
So it happened after three attempts. We were doing this. Please don’t judge me, this is a girl I don’t know when they gave birth to her, we never stayed together before and I am 9 years older than her.
Soon she missed her period. Although she always complain of late period, we waited and there was nothing I could do. No money on me, I was just caged in that village. Not even a network signal. I can’t make calls. I managed to find network in a nearby bush and made a call to a Friend to borrow me some money.
She said we should abort it because of my mum. So she took pills and it went out. I knelt down with tear in my eyes and apologize to her and begged her that we should stop this. She said ok.
One night she started and I said to her, we have agreed not to do this again, she said she has fallen in love with me and wishes to marry me. I resisted but she threatened to tell mum all we have been doing, so I obliged. My regret grew bigger.
Thank God, by November I left that village and went to Abuja for a movie shoot. After the movie I swore not to go back to that village. I begged for money and headed to Lagos. Mind you, ileft some of my clothes, shoes and laptop I use in writing scripts because I am a script writer.
I got to Lagos with nothing on me and nowhere to stay. I slept in a site they are building for days and managed to follow them to do painting work I never did in my life and saved up money and got a small room for 35k and agent and agreement for 30k totalling 65k.
I moved in. Trouble started again, she kept calling that she wants to join me else she tell mum and her dad everything. I begged her that I don’t have a job and there is no means of income here. She should wait till I get a job she refused, I was forced to send 10k to her to come with agreement that we will stop and she will look for a job while I look for too.
Before she came I met my ex, we never broke up, we only lost contact. So we met and she was not in any relationship but she has had 6 relationships after we lost contact. My ex came to spend time with me. She came on Saturday and my sister came in on Monday and met her, you needed to see her face and reaction. I introduced them.
My sister refused to eat or talk. My girl was very uncomfortable and decided to leave the next day. My sister began to display. Why would I bring another woman after I deflowered her and all that. She picked a knife to stab herself, she stopped on the condition that I say I don’t love my girl that it’s her I love.
I Said all that because I don’t want her to hurt herself. Welles agmfter she came. She started touching me and I resisted, she picked a knife, she said it’s because of my girl, she wants to die. I was so scared, this is how I have been living with her.
My girl in the other end is saying I brought in my wife claiming she’s my sister, that if I want to prove it that she is not my wife I should let her come again. I said ok, I begged my sister that my girl is come she should please behave well, she said ok. My girl came and reverse was the case. My sister even hid her phone in the room and left it to camera me and my girl.
That day, it was war and my girl left. Mind you I have not told my girl anything. She left in anger. Now last week i opened a book and saw that my sister has written all what happened between us and what didn’t happen.
The one that vexed me was that she put it that I raped her, I cried and confronted her. I rather die than to rape a girl, I could put my life on the line for any girl who was raped to get justice. Because of this, I left home and go stay in a friend’s place.
My girl called that very day I left home that she’s in my house, I was like but you didn’t tell me, she said mush she tell me before she can visit? I said ok, I will come back on Monday. This past Monday I was on my way, I didn’t see motor because of the lockdown and i didn’t have money for bike, I trekked from festac to jakande before I see bus that took me half way and I used lag to complete my journey home.
Guess what, I didn’t meet my girl at home. She left that even. I got home exactly 8pm and I called her she was on her way home, I became angry that why did she leave. Around 11pm she called me to log on and broke the news.
She said she wanted to collect some music on my sister’s phone and she mistakenly sent a recorded voice she saw there and it played and what was there was my conversation with my sister, that I promised to marry her, that I don’t love my girl that she is the one forcing herself on me.
That we have been sleeping together for a year now and she has aborted for me. All what happened I the village my girl vomited it. And called it a quit. The only thing I told her was, that she liked about the recording because my sister never had a phone then, so how did it record it? And all what she said I never said that.
I know I was going to tell her but I wanted to get something doing first. Now my sister has ruined my relationship and has turned me into something else in my house. She shouts at me anyhow, abuses me, she has slapped me twice in from of people. Even people are doubting I I’m her elder brother.
All this I endure because I don’t want people to know the atrocity we committed. Please don’t judge me too much because I have already judged myself. All that is in my head now is suicide. I have lost everything, I don’t know what I am living for. I never enjoyed it one bit cos it’s a taboo.
I never had it in mind that I was going to the village to sleep with my half sister. I regret ever being born and I cursed the day I stepped my foot into that village. I regret having her as a sister and i regret everything we did.
Did I tell you she went to my phone to collect my girl’s number and called her. She questions every chat I do on Facebook or Whatsapp, she questions me anytime I change password and force me to tell her my password else she kills herself or tell everybody what is going on.
Sorry for the long story. (But I dont know what else to do,I need your advise)