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We make love and my wife is still a freak but I remember how my wife was so wild with a complete stranger and a certain jealous rage fills me immediately.
My wife became upset and blamed me for giving her a threesome when I knew I could not stomach it. I got angry and called her a whore. One that gets turned on by a stranger in front of her husband. I accused her of being a loose woman to even introduce threesomes into our marriage.
Those words were said in anger,my wife left our home that night. I couldn’t reach her,called all her friends and our family. No one knew where she was. I was freaking out. Still could’t reach her the next day. Two days later,she came back and it was obvious that she had been drinking and crying.
I went on my knees and begged her for hurting her and saying those words. She was crying and telling me I had pushed her to do something bad. I asked her what she did: she had been so upset and went to be with the same guy I was upset about her for.
At that point,I knew there was no going back. I asked her for a divorce. I was angry. My wife begged me but I was too hurt. Once was enough,another episode,I could not deal with. She moved out with our kids cos they are still young. Since then,they have been staying with her aunt.
I swear to God,this is not working. This is not how I pictured my life or marriage. Everyone is blaming me for all of this. and truth be told, I blame me too. I know it was first my wife’s idea but I went along with it. Things got out of hand. I miss my family and I want my wife back.
How do we even begin to get back together? I cannot get the rage I feel out and I know that until I do that,even if we get back together,our marriage will never be the same. We started counseling last week. But I could not sit through counseling when my wife mentioned during counseling that she having s*x with that guy.
The therapist had wanted us to be honest but she was too honest. She says she will never have a threesome anymore. But why do I still feel hurt? I think its because she cheated with the threesome guy but my wife blames me for that…yes…I pushed her but that is still making me angry to be honest.
How do we move forward from here…I am still angry but I want my wife back…I love her too much…how do I stop feeling angry?How do I forget all of these happened?
From Anonymous poster