My Selfishness Made Me Sell Out & I Might Loose My Son Forever-Pls Advise
I need your help. I was selfish in the past. And now, I may have to live with regret for the rest of my life. Three years ago, my ex: Tina got married but was very unhappy in her marriage cos they were having infertility…low sperm count matter. Unfortunately, she married a man who is shallow and allowed their fertility issue become a problem.
The man was drinking and flirting and Tina came to me for support. We didn’t plan to but we ended up having s*x most of the time. She just wanted a shoulder to cry on. She never wanted her marriage to end. Well, it was only about 3 or 4 times but she ended up breaking it off after like 2 months and a half.
Tina said she wanted to try and work things out with her husband and I was fine with that.At the time, I too was single. Well, exactly a year after, Tina had a baby boy. She posted pictures on ig. Very cute baby and family pictures. I was surprised cos I knew they had infertility issues. But I kept mute.
However, as Tina posted regular pictures of her son on social media…I could not help but notice the resemblance. I had to reach out to her. I asked her and she initially denied the baby was mine but after threatening to make trouble…she begged me to let it go. She confirmed the baby is mine but will do anything for me to keep quiet.
I scratched my head and asked for 5M to keep quiet. I don’t know why I did that. I regret that today. Tina sent me 3.5M and promised to pay the balance over a year. She completed the amount but now,I feel so terrible. Like I was very wrong to collect the money.
Tina makes it hard cos she updates this boy’s pictures and all I want to be is his dad. I sold that right for a sleazy 5M. I feel absolutely terrible. I am getting married soon. Yet…I cannot tell anyone that I have a son…my son will never know me. How do I make this right?
I do not want to hurt Tina or her marriage. But seeing your own seed pulls a kind of emotion and desire I never felt before. Sometimes…all I want to do is just hold him in my hands…I never wanted to be his dad so bad like I do now…Daily….I am dying with guilt. What do I do? How do I make things right….I think my son deserves to know his true father…maybe not now? Maybe when he is old enough to understand?
My fear is…my son may hate me if I dont make an effort to make things right now…and I think Tina’s husband deserves to know the truth. I do not plan to take the boy away…no, they can raise him as their own…I just want him to know his real father and give me a chance to love him as a father should love his son.
Also…my family and bride to be deserve to know…that might hurt them but keeping it a secret will hurt far more….what should I do…I need your advice….(anyone can feel free to insult me…I know I was a d*ck head…but I just want to do the right thing before its too late). Please advise me.