I Am Caught Between Three Men Because I Just Have To Survive-Pls Advise
Please hide my identity. I really need your help cos I am feeling so guilty. That girl’s story about how she slept with her lecturer encouraged me to write my own(click here to read that story) …maybe I can get advise on what to do… I am a four hundred level undergraduate of biochemistry in Unilag (not real name of school). My parents are Medical practitioners so they always wanted me to practice medicine. My father is a doctor, my mother is a Pharmacist.
They made me put in medicine for my jamb but after 3 attempts without luck, I had to take Biochem. They were very disappointed but then, they were still hoping, that I will somehow still do something with Biochem in the medical field. What my parents dont know is that I am still struggling even with the Biochemistry.
Also, in my second year, my boyfriend got admission to go abroad to study, so we got engaged because we love each other so much. He is also aware that I am a virgin and wants me to be that way until marriage. We see each other like once in a year when he is able to travel to come visit.
The problem now is, I started having carry overs in some of my courses in year two. And I panicked. I did not know what to do cos it was bad. I had only one more opportunity to redo these courses or I will be transferred to another course of study,maybe Zoology.
A friend of mine introduced me to our course rep, that he can help me. And when I went to meet him, he told me he can help but I have to pay 100k for each course. I told him I cannot raise 100k for each of the courses cos they are four of them. He then said then I will have to sleep with the lecturers except one….that one does not sleep with student…I must pay him.
I begged and begged the course rep that I can only manage to raise 100k for one course. He then said he will help me if I agree to be his girl. I thought about it…at least…its better than sleeping with old men…so I agreed. I had no choice so I have been sleeping with my course rep…now my boyfriend because he is helping me with my courses.
I have passed all those courses…infact…I don’t need to read for exam cos any exam I write, my boyfriend makes sure I get at least a B in that course. I know you think what I am doing is bad but I had no choice. I am doing a course just to please my parents ….I am not going to fail cos that would be terrible..my parents might disown me.
As for my fiancé…I feel very terrible about him…I have been betraying him so I thought its best to break up with him. When I told him that I want to break up with him…he asked why…I started crying and told him cos I slept with someone…thinking that will push him away. But it didn’t.
He said its ok. That he understands school pressure ….that he too faces that kind of pressure. So, he told me not to worry as long as I don’t do it again. What he does not know is…I have to keep my course mate boyfriend as long as I am in school else I will fail. So, I have to hide this from him.
Unfortunately for me, my fiancé’s friend (in school of medicine, here in Unilag) just found out that I am dating my course rep ….and he confronted me…I had to beg him not to tell my fiancé…that my relationship with my course rep is just for my survival. After much begging…he agreed…but said he has to sleep with me to keep my secret…
And that is my problem…how many people will I sleep with to graduate from this course? Every time he keeps reminding me that he knows my secret and if I don’t let him sleep with me….he will expose me to my fiancé and even my parents. My friend says I should do it after all, I will soon graduate in less than a year.
My hands are tied…what is to say that even if I sleep with the guy…that my course rep will not find out and dump me…is there any other way out of this? I already feel so terrible and I have thought of committing suicide…yes, I am not book smart…is s*x the only way I can make it in this school?…I feel so helpless…the pressure on me is too much…how do I free myself from all of these pressure from my parents, my fiancé, my course rep and my fiancé’s boyfriend?
Please advise me.
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