True Life Story: I Get Turned On Watching Our Maid- Pls Advice
Hello Lively Stones,
Hide my name and number please. I am a 40 year old man. I have been married for 8 years with 3 beautiful children and a lovely wife. Our marriage has been a beautiful one for the most part. I love my wife but we both have demanding careers. Sometimes, we had to bring in relatives to the house to help take care of our children but it began to bring about over familiarity, so we decided against our initial plan to get house maid.
We hear horrible stories of how maids treat children so we may sure that screen our maids and get proper background checks for them before we bring them into our home. We also installed camera in most parts of our house including her room. We got a 20 year old maid, someone who wants to learn a trade after working to get some money after a while.
Grace our maid is extremely modest and godly. Our children like her and the house chores are being done accurately. No issues with her. Sometimes, my wife goes through the camera footage but in recent times, shes been very busy, so am the one that goes through the footage. Its sometimes tiring just watching footages but I have to make the sacrifice cos we cant afford a surprise.
It was then I watched a footage of this seemly godly girl, Grace masturbating in her room one day. Come and see how this girl that ties her head all through the day, was shaking as she was fingering herself, she was moaning and shaking. Her niipples became so tensed. I was shocked and immediately wanted to show my wife but something stopped me. Instead, I found myself watching our maid masturbate and pleasure herself. I did something even worse, I downloaded that footage and started watching it and t really turned me on.
Since that day, I also secretly watch the video and I have been spying on her when no one is looking. I am afraid that I am getting myself into serious trouble. I don’t know what to do. I think I want to send her away but she is very nice and she really needs the money pus we only just got her, its really hard to get a new person that does her job very well.
I decided not to say anything, at least, its just masturbating to her footage but anytime I do it, I feel so terrible. My biggest fear is ever cheating on my wife because, she means the world to me, I cannot bear the pain that would cause her so I need advice. How do I manage this situation? Should I send Grace away? What reason will I give for telling my wife that we need to send her away?
I am feeling guilty already. I have never looked at another woman s3xually since I married. This is the first time…the video of the maid masturbating feels like watching p*rn cos I never imagined getting aroused just by watching another woman pleasure herself. I toyed with the idea that maybe I should ask my wife to do the same masturbation act for me but she would wonder what has come over me….my wife does not even know that I masturbate.
I am lost, I need help.