True Life Story: Will My Marriage Survive Afterall They Say True Love Conquers All
Hello Lively Stones,
I married the most beautiful husband about five months ago. I met him at a wedding of a colleague. He just couldn’t take his eyes away from me. Trust me, I was dressed to kill at that wedding…my curves did not disappoint me. I knew he was looking at me and I encouraged him to flirt more…our eyes locked several times, when it did, I licked my lips…he was running mad.
This guy had no choice but to approach me … we talked and I gave him my number. He asked if he could drop me off after the wedding and the rest is history. While we were dating, I found out he is not like me in alot of way but I was so in love with this amazing guy. He was so great to me…so I hid some bad flaws I had. For example, I smoked weed…but I had to hide it from him.
Omo guy was in love…in 4 months, he was talking marriage. So, I thought it was time to quit secretly smoking weed. I discovered that for me to stop smoking, I had to replace the habit with another habit. I used s3x to replace the habit. My guy loved me more for it. He thought he was marrying a freak and I loved every bit of it. And so we got married in a most lavish wedding ever exactly 10 months after dating.
Since I got married, I have been very happy but the problem I have is that the s3x seems not to be enough to hold back my urge to want to smoke weed. My past life is now hunting me. I could not hold it anymore…I started doing weed again. To hide from my husband, I do not smoke at home, I try to smoke at my friend’s house. Yes, my friends kept my secret for me. Sometimes, they jest at me, that my husband does not know he is married to a street girl.
Ever since, I feel bad for hiding and doing this behind my husband’s back. Many times, I have contemplated telling my husband…but I am so much afraid of what he will think of me…he never knew I smoke cigarette talkless of weed. I have been praying to God to give me strength to stop this habit. Its had because I have been in this since I was 17 years old. I am 29 years old.
As if the smoking is not bad enough…two weeks ago…I was at my friend’s place smoking and some other guys were there. We were all high and one thing led to another, we had group s3x. Before marriage, I would not have felt bad but now…its a different story…I know you might think I am a horrible person but I need advice and help. I do not want to ruin my marriage…weed smoking is like second nature to me. If only my husband will understand…I will not hide to do it…I can smoke safely and get high in my house where I can control my behavior.
But like society will judge me…I fear my husband will judge me too…I fear he will end our marriage…I tried therapy several times but none worked. I am not an addict…I just like to smoke at least once or twice in a week. I really have f*cked up this good thing…I want help….should I tell my husband…will someone help me tell him for me? At least, to explain that its not an addict…just a habit. Everyone has one bad habit right?
Do you think he will get it and accept me the way I am…will our love survive this? I wish I told him earlier…I feel so afraid and stuck. I do not ever want to cheat on my husband…cos I do not think I can survive if he cheats on me…what should I do? How do I just say to him: honey, I smoke weed …can you accept me the way I am? Didnt they say the truth will set you free? Should I say the truth? Or just keep praying for strength not to mess this up…
Someone said if my man really loves me …he wont leave me if I tell him the truth…but the very thought of what will happen if I say anything to my husband is making me shiver with fear…one mind is telling me true love conquers all…one mind is telling me not to be stupid…
This is really f*cked up…
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